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First, a photo update:::
I'm 31 weeks pregnant people...that means only 9 more to go. very nice.
also,.... I don't always look THAT insanely happy (ie above photo)
and...... Christmas was fantastic. Santa also somehow managed to bring me a nintendo ds, which means I must have been REALLY good this year.
I'm wondering what I'm doing here. I don't know if I can (or want) to finish school here. I don't know what I want to do. I just woke up from a dream where something really unfair happened to me, and all I could do was scream at everyone I knew that I hated it here. Goodbye to the year that....
I got married
I moved to the south
lost my vehicle
quit the one job I've ever had that I felt passionate about and felt like I belonged at
paid a ridiculous amount of money for nine hours of courses that I shouldn't have had to take
stopped writing
stopped smoking
stopped drinking
and goodbye to the year that
stole the new harry potter movie from me and countless other fans
was full of get-togethers with friends at our place in the Paseo
we went on one last baby-free fantastic road trip with some amazing people (Chris, Shannon and Hannah love you guys!)
I learned how much fun road bikes are
I took up an obsession/interest in all things owl-related
we played foosball and hung out at the lees
I don't know, bad, good...a lot has gone down. I miss my family and my friends more than anything. But I'm happy for the departure from sameness. Oklahoma wasn't so bad, but it was time to leave. I just think it's funny that it wasn't hard to leave at all.....it was easy. But being here, and staying here is hard.
I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do here, or what I'm supposed to accomplish. My priorities have changed since we are having Sophia, but I still feel unfullfilled. I'm going to take this semester off, and that terrifies me. I've been in college for a long time. LSU is ok. It's unfullfilling for me. Starbucks is dead to me here. Gamestop is retail with a lot of silly people who can be assholes. I like everyone I work with and they seem to like me so I guess that is the important thing.
So just work and taking care of a baby the first half of this year. Crazy.
And I think we decided we ARE going to try to move before Sophia gets here. It's AWFUL timing because there's not a lot I can do because of not lifting stuff, but I can help pack and get everything ready to move out. The hard part is finding a place. I think we're going to start looking more seriously the sooner school gets here (i.e. paycheck from shannon's new job and some student loan money to help us move) Because one of the reasons I hate living in Baton Rouge so much is because of WHERE we live exactly. I don't even want to talk about it, but it's awful. I'll say that.
Today is Shannon's last day of work at the fake starbucks in Barnes and Noble! He starts his job at the school next Monday I think. :)
I want to start packing. bzzz.
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